Regret

This is a story of my friend "dorian gray"






I am what you may call a do-anything-for-love kind of guy. I don't care what the obstacles are, who are against me or what others think about how I go on about my lovelife. I didn't know whether it was an admirable trait or not. But low and behold, I got my answer... This is my story...

She was my everything. My bestfriend and my girlfriend. We were content and happy to share each other's experiences. She even loved my daughter (yes I do have a 2-year old daughter) like her own, and I, too, loved her daughter as well (yes she also has a 4-year old daughter!). Sometimes, we even discussed our marriage. In short, we were an almost perfect couple that would soon be husband and wife... almost... Like any other couple, we had problems. Ours was the fact that we thought we could live alone. We never went out with our friends, we never talked to anyone casually if it wasn't badly needed. We lived in our own little bubble. Never did we think that that bubble will someday burst.

I'll admit it, I was the one who broke-up with her. (I know what you're thinking..) My reason was simple. I was getting choked. The fact that we had no one else to talk to or hang out with was very restricting. Love wasn't our problem. Hell, we had lots of it! The problem was we had no one to go to when we need advice, when we were having problems. So all that quarrels and fights bottled up inside of us and one day it just exploded. We (rather I, ) decided to give up.

The first few months was very liberating. I could talk to anyone I like, go anywhere, hang out with anybody etc. I was enjoying the single life that I had once again.

But then, the aftershock came.

I found out that I wasn't over her. And I found out the hard way.

Someone was courting her, and worst, all of this was happening right in front of my face, quite literally, because we were all in one office. (how's that for bad luck?) As expected, I tried to get her back. I can honestly and surely say that those were the most painful, agonizing and regretful days of my life.

A lot of thoughts ran into my mind like,

"I shouldn't have let her go"

"If only I could get her back"

"I would do anything to have her back"


I wished this story ended like a movie where the protagonist emerges victorious and gets the girl. But sadly, reality sets in. She is already in love with someone else. Could I blame her? Of course not! Did I get what I deserve? Absolutely. But most importantly, I did what was right. I let her go. Despite the fact that I loved her so much, I set aside my own feelings and did what would make her happier.

Did it hurt? Of course! Was it right? Absolutely.

If there was anything left for me to learn with this experience is that you would only know whether your love for someone is real love hurts.